For those parents out there you will know the amazing feeling that I’m about to explain, for those yet to experience parenthood you really are in for a treat. I love being a dad. I always felt like it was something I would enjoy and so was looking forward to it, but despite positive expectations of the experience, I had no idea just how wonderful it would be.
On Friday night my daughter Jemma gave me a gift that touched me about as deep as I have ever been touched in my life. It sounds like such a simple thing, but she fell asleep by nestling into my shoulder as I held her upright. Now to explain to the non-parents out there, for over four and a half months I’ve cradled Jemma to sleep at least once if not twice a day, so putting her to sleep is no big deal. The difference here is that it was the first time she voluntarily rested her head, found a comfy spot and decided to fall asleep on my shoulder.
We were sitting at the Twisp River Pub in the Methow Valley having dinner with my mother-in-law, the evening sunlight was streaming through the trees along the river flowing below us and it was a beautiful scene. Jemma was in great spirits, had been flashing her gorgeous smile at anyone who would look at her and basically had worn herself out. I felt her rub her face into my shoulder as she does when she feels sleepy, but instead of fussing she put her head down and closed her eyes. Such a simple thing, but to me it was utterly beautiful and tears welled in my eyes as I watched her sleeping on my shoulder… it was the moment so far where I have most felt like a dad and I will remember it forever.